I got my vision back, there might be a few figurative obstructions in the way but I can see past them now. I love contacts. For the period of time that I was glasses only I had the strangest feeling of vulnerability. During the modeling sessions I had to take the glasses off. I was stared at but could not stare back. I couldn't even make eye contact with the people who were painting me. They were blurs in my vision.
In college I studied Feminist Theory and International Relations Theory. There's a power in the ability to observe and learn. Most men hate being stared at or seen as an object of another man. Women are used to it. I say most men. For those male art models out there, I am so proud of you. I wish there were more of you. But for the majority of men, they feel degraded when someone stares at them. They are uncomfortable with being an object of a gaze.
When Olympia was exhibited for the first time there was an uproar. A naked woman dares to stare back at me? Wow. And for that very reason I love it. A naked woman with power; a hundred years later it still sounds revolutionary.